blue watermelon

That was my final decision and it was not only based on a whim. People would mock me for being a coward and tell me I should act more like a man instead. They would say something like 'you have to find the right one and fight for her love'. No matter how much I disagreed with them even came up with some reasoning (or excuses they might say) why I thought of it that way, I wouldn't deny it nonetheless. What did they say, which I had to half-heartedly admit contain half-truth in it.  So why? If I concurred with some of their notion, what was the main reason then? Well, for once was too scared to lose someone again right now. I'd made mistakes in my life, I did hurt people, and when Kanye West said he was scared of the karma, so was I.  And also in this fast-changing and unpredictable world, who would have anticipated everything. 'At least you got someone who would be there for you' and what if they gave up on me? Because I couldn't guarantee that on that parti...

     I know it's kinda late to make your first blogspot at the age of 25. Blogspot is a year older than me, and I've known it since I was like 7 or 8, yet it never crossed my mind even just once to create one. I was reading a review of a book I've just finished reading on goodreads when I accidentally stumbled someone's blogspot. Man, it brought old memories seeing the oldschool UI (Especially those abundant time to surf through the internet as a kid on holiday)      And after pretty much consideration, I reckon it's a perfect time to start writing again (I haven't write anything substantial for a while because I always think that I lost a sense of touch). I know there are lots of another platform to create a web to express yourself, but I choose this particularly because of the nostalgia. Well, for instance I don't need anything fancy or multiple features that I won't use at all. As long as I can write and post anything I want, such as book-review, my o...